Tuesday, November 11, 2008
Tuesday, November 4, 2008
ive been in a pretty crummy mood the past few days. i don't really know what set me off, but yesterday i got in a really really bad mood.
part of me has been doing a lot of thinking about my life. what i want out of it. what i have to give. and what it really is going to be like. i am fairly happy with my life. i think i have a lot of things going for me right now, and i love that.
but sometimes, i feel i don't offer enough. sometimes i feel i am not wanted around by people. i feel as if i'm some kind of bumout or not fun enough to be around.
lately ive been pretty bummed out about krissy and i. we haven't done anything by ourselves or anything besides sit around and watch tv. the past few weekends she has gone to akron to hang out with her friends, while i've done nothing but sit at home. we don't go out anymore, and it really just bums me out. I asked her if she wanted to go to the show we are playing this weekend and she blew me off and just said, "no."
it seems she has been doing a bit better with her depression. she's been in better moods, and ive been doing my best in dealing with her with this. ive been very supportive and trying to help her along with it. but at the same point, while i try my best with this, it seems to bring me down to a level where i bottle things like this up and it starts to get me depressed about things.
another thing that has been on my mind lately, and maybe i'm really blowing this out of proportion, is something that has to do with brianna. Krissy always used to refer to me to brianna as "dad." and while yes, i am not her dad, she used to call me it all the time. it felt nice, because i would do anything for her. but she doesnt call me that anymore. i'm not sure what im more confused about, that she doesnt call me that anymore, or the fact that krissy stopped referring me as that.
and lastly, i think one thing that has bugged me most is that i am lost as to where we stand as in getting married. we havent taqlked about plans at all. and she doesnt want to talk about it. and lately everyone and their mother have been asking me what the plans are, and i just feel lost.
maybe im over reacting about a lot of things, but its just been eating me inside.
part of me has been doing a lot of thinking about my life. what i want out of it. what i have to give. and what it really is going to be like. i am fairly happy with my life. i think i have a lot of things going for me right now, and i love that.
but sometimes, i feel i don't offer enough. sometimes i feel i am not wanted around by people. i feel as if i'm some kind of bumout or not fun enough to be around.
lately ive been pretty bummed out about krissy and i. we haven't done anything by ourselves or anything besides sit around and watch tv. the past few weekends she has gone to akron to hang out with her friends, while i've done nothing but sit at home. we don't go out anymore, and it really just bums me out. I asked her if she wanted to go to the show we are playing this weekend and she blew me off and just said, "no."
it seems she has been doing a bit better with her depression. she's been in better moods, and ive been doing my best in dealing with her with this. ive been very supportive and trying to help her along with it. but at the same point, while i try my best with this, it seems to bring me down to a level where i bottle things like this up and it starts to get me depressed about things.
another thing that has been on my mind lately, and maybe i'm really blowing this out of proportion, is something that has to do with brianna. Krissy always used to refer to me to brianna as "dad." and while yes, i am not her dad, she used to call me it all the time. it felt nice, because i would do anything for her. but she doesnt call me that anymore. i'm not sure what im more confused about, that she doesnt call me that anymore, or the fact that krissy stopped referring me as that.
and lastly, i think one thing that has bugged me most is that i am lost as to where we stand as in getting married. we havent taqlked about plans at all. and she doesnt want to talk about it. and lately everyone and their mother have been asking me what the plans are, and i just feel lost.
maybe im over reacting about a lot of things, but its just been eating me inside.
Sunday, November 2, 2008
Wednesday, October 22, 2008
Florida has been fun so far. Although I really miss home. More importantly I really miss Krissy and Brianna.
I got in Sunday night. I spent a few hours at the Great Lakes brewery at Hopkins airport watching football and drinking beers. I got to the aiport way to early. I thought my plane left at 4:45, but it wasn't til 5:55. The flight was quick. Just under 2 hours. I got to sit in the emergency aisle. I love that seat because there is so much leg room.
Got in and had a few beers and went to sleep. I was tired from the flight and we had to be up to play golf at 9:00am. Golf was good. we played at the course my parents live on down here. I played pretty well, considering that I was using my old clubs. I really dont like my old clubs, so it was really hard for me to get used to them. I did play well though. I shot a 79.
After golf we hung out by the pool for a bit and came back and made some dinner and just hung out. It was someting i needed. just a nice day to relax.
Yesterday, we played golf at a place called Shadow Wood. The place was unbelieveable. The golf course was beautiful and very hard. the fairways were tight and at some points only about 15 yards wide. The grass down here, in the rough, makes it really hard to get out of. it's really thick and makes it hard to get out of if you're in it. the greens were lightning fast, so putting was hard. Not to mention there was water and massive sand traps on every hole.
After golf we went to dinner at Big Al's. I love that place. Great food, and Yeungling on tap. What more could you ask for?
Today is going to be spent by sitting by the pool and just relaxing. I think later on I will go out and hit up Coconut Point(Mall) and maybe head over to the outlets. That is always my favorite part of coming here.
I come home tomorrow at around 4:30. Im looking forward to seeing Krissy and spending a few days left on my vacation with her.
Tuesday, October 14, 2008
i'm pretty irked today.
today i found out there wa sa "new" job created.
it was something i think i was very well qualified for.
turns out, because i turned down the job i was offered last week, they didnt consider me for this one. and my boss blatenly lied to me about it, and denied it was the reason i wasnt considered. after i found this out i ripped him a new asshole.
after stewing over it in the car on the way home, i decided, i am now going to finish up my degree and get the fuck out.
today i found out there wa sa "new" job created.
it was something i think i was very well qualified for.
turns out, because i turned down the job i was offered last week, they didnt consider me for this one. and my boss blatenly lied to me about it, and denied it was the reason i wasnt considered. after i found this out i ripped him a new asshole.
after stewing over it in the car on the way home, i decided, i am now going to finish up my degree and get the fuck out.
Monday, October 13, 2008
ive had this really bad migrane for about 5 days now. it's gotten to the point that i sometimes have to squint out of one eye to see. it's pretty painful and i havent had one of these headaches in a long time. sometimes it gets to the point that i start to get nausea.
Chris and Jamie got married over the weekend. I was honored to be the best man for their wedding. the ceremony was a bit tedious, but arent they all? i will have to admit, i did get a bit teary eyed standing there. I am very happy for the both of them and wish them luck in their travelings.
The party bus was mega fun times. although i did feel like the odd man out, everyone was kind of buddied up with another couple and i was the odd man out. not a big deal but whatever.
the reception was good. i had a lot of fun, but would probably have had more fun if krissy was in a better mood. brianna got sick, krissy was worried and didnt have a good time. i didnt even get to dance with her at all, which was a major bumout.
I think my best man speech went alright. i was pretty nervous about giving it. all in all it was a beautiful day and night.
tonight we had to cancel our show. i really really hate canceling shows. and i dont think we ever have. hell, we didnt cancel the lewd acts show, we had joe play bass for frank. but tonight, there is no way i can function properly. there is no physical way i can sing/scream tonight. if i do i think my head would just explode. so with that being said we have to cancel tonight's show with Vitamin X.
GO BROWNS.
playlist:
Chris and Jamie got married over the weekend. I was honored to be the best man for their wedding. the ceremony was a bit tedious, but arent they all? i will have to admit, i did get a bit teary eyed standing there. I am very happy for the both of them and wish them luck in their travelings.
The party bus was mega fun times. although i did feel like the odd man out, everyone was kind of buddied up with another couple and i was the odd man out. not a big deal but whatever.
the reception was good. i had a lot of fun, but would probably have had more fun if krissy was in a better mood. brianna got sick, krissy was worried and didnt have a good time. i didnt even get to dance with her at all, which was a major bumout.
I think my best man speech went alright. i was pretty nervous about giving it. all in all it was a beautiful day and night.
tonight we had to cancel our show. i really really hate canceling shows. and i dont think we ever have. hell, we didnt cancel the lewd acts show, we had joe play bass for frank. but tonight, there is no way i can function properly. there is no physical way i can sing/scream tonight. if i do i think my head would just explode. so with that being said we have to cancel tonight's show with Vitamin X.
GO BROWNS.
playlist:
- chokehold - "content with dying"
- moment - "songs for the self-destructive"
- reverse the curse - "paths"
- midnight - "slay the spits"
- helmet - "strap it on"
Thursday, October 9, 2008
today has been a semi good day.
sometimes i really get annoyed with the guys who work for me. i bust their chops, they bust mine. i can dish it and i can take it just fine. it just really bugs me when i am "being the boss." I have an employee who is a great worker and works hard, but is kind of slow and slacks off here and there. last weekend i got a little angry with him with because he took forever doing his orders. so this carried over the weekend and onto monday afternoon. i asked him why he didnt do a simple task that he is required to do, and his response was "i ran out of time."
i told him his response was unacceptable. because it was. as much time as he wastes, he could have gotten it done. so i called him tuesday and confronted him about it. he was short with me. so lateron in the day i met up with him and he was really snippy with me, so i asked again what was wrong? and no answer. so being the guy who gets irritated when people ignore you, i made a comment to him, somehting along the lines of, "so what youre not going to talk to me because i yelled at you and asked you why you didnt perform your job?" and got no answer. This irks me more than anything, when people dont respond to questions. So i said fine, finish your job and go home, i dont need you the rest of the day.
Today i found out he was talking all kinds of shit on me to the rest of my guys. I don't take kindly to that. I like to be everyone's friend. But I need to be the boss first and foremost. I am off the next 3 days, but will make it a point to have a sit down with said employee about his actions.
this set me off to be in a pretty crummy mood for the day. I came home, ate some lunch and went back to work. There I had a conversation with a manager of my account who had put me in a better mood.
I cut the grass and cleaned up the backyard and picked up brianna from school. I'm about to make some dinner and then head to the mall with joe to pick up my tux for chris and jamie's wedding on saturday.
good times will be had this weekend.
i am excited for chris and jamie.
i am also excited to see dave and lindsey's newborn.
t-minus 9 days til Florida!
sometimes i really get annoyed with the guys who work for me. i bust their chops, they bust mine. i can dish it and i can take it just fine. it just really bugs me when i am "being the boss." I have an employee who is a great worker and works hard, but is kind of slow and slacks off here and there. last weekend i got a little angry with him with because he took forever doing his orders. so this carried over the weekend and onto monday afternoon. i asked him why he didnt do a simple task that he is required to do, and his response was "i ran out of time."
i told him his response was unacceptable. because it was. as much time as he wastes, he could have gotten it done. so i called him tuesday and confronted him about it. he was short with me. so lateron in the day i met up with him and he was really snippy with me, so i asked again what was wrong? and no answer. so being the guy who gets irritated when people ignore you, i made a comment to him, somehting along the lines of, "so what youre not going to talk to me because i yelled at you and asked you why you didnt perform your job?" and got no answer. This irks me more than anything, when people dont respond to questions. So i said fine, finish your job and go home, i dont need you the rest of the day.
Today i found out he was talking all kinds of shit on me to the rest of my guys. I don't take kindly to that. I like to be everyone's friend. But I need to be the boss first and foremost. I am off the next 3 days, but will make it a point to have a sit down with said employee about his actions.
this set me off to be in a pretty crummy mood for the day. I came home, ate some lunch and went back to work. There I had a conversation with a manager of my account who had put me in a better mood.
I cut the grass and cleaned up the backyard and picked up brianna from school. I'm about to make some dinner and then head to the mall with joe to pick up my tux for chris and jamie's wedding on saturday.
good times will be had this weekend.
i am excited for chris and jamie.
i am also excited to see dave and lindsey's newborn.
t-minus 9 days til Florida!
Tuesday, October 7, 2008
yesterday i had gotten a phone call from my boss. he asked me if i wanted to sit down to discuss an opportunity with him about a move at work. there is a new position opening up at work and he really was pushing me to take this job. i knew of the position in some detail but not all. there was no created pay band for it yet, but the job entitled me to work weekends and have 2 days off during the week. after i found out i would have to work weekends, i declined the job opportunity. my boss sounded pretty upset about it. it really made me think throughout the night about the job and me turning it down.
it got me to the point that i didnt sleep very well all night. i kept tossing and turning and had an uneasy feeling in my stomach, like i screwed up by turning this position down. i felt like my boss was disappointed in me for not even wanting to sit down and discuss the job.
I just feel like at this point in time i do not get to spend much time with brianna or krissy. we both work weekends and have only sunday off. we hardly spend enough time with each other as is now, which is depressing enough. so if i took this job i wouldnt even have the weekends to spend with both of them. so i made my decision on family first.
later on this afternoon at our meeting, i spoke with a fellow worker who did sit down and discuss said job. turns out they wont budge on the days off. the days are set monday and "maybe" tuesdays off. there is no pay increase, so basically it is a lateral move. i feel good about my decision now.
right now with this new system they are putting in place it is forcing the sales reps to basically have the ability to sell. it is osmehitng we do not have the time to do really. they are making it so we do not have to merchandise stores anymore. our job would be strictly to sell and write orders. which would be totally awesome. i wouldnt have to touch a single case throughout the day. which could mean i could have the possibility to have saturday and sunday off. because i would spend the time friday night writing orders for monday so i didnt have to come out on saturday at all.
all in all i feel better for not jumping on that job "opportunity."
in other news, i have decided that come spring, i am going to enroll myself back into school and finish up and get my degree.
it got me to the point that i didnt sleep very well all night. i kept tossing and turning and had an uneasy feeling in my stomach, like i screwed up by turning this position down. i felt like my boss was disappointed in me for not even wanting to sit down and discuss the job.
I just feel like at this point in time i do not get to spend much time with brianna or krissy. we both work weekends and have only sunday off. we hardly spend enough time with each other as is now, which is depressing enough. so if i took this job i wouldnt even have the weekends to spend with both of them. so i made my decision on family first.
later on this afternoon at our meeting, i spoke with a fellow worker who did sit down and discuss said job. turns out they wont budge on the days off. the days are set monday and "maybe" tuesdays off. there is no pay increase, so basically it is a lateral move. i feel good about my decision now.
right now with this new system they are putting in place it is forcing the sales reps to basically have the ability to sell. it is osmehitng we do not have the time to do really. they are making it so we do not have to merchandise stores anymore. our job would be strictly to sell and write orders. which would be totally awesome. i wouldnt have to touch a single case throughout the day. which could mean i could have the possibility to have saturday and sunday off. because i would spend the time friday night writing orders for monday so i didnt have to come out on saturday at all.
all in all i feel better for not jumping on that job "opportunity."
in other news, i have decided that come spring, i am going to enroll myself back into school and finish up and get my degree.
Wednesday, September 24, 2008
blahhhbity blah blah.
long time no type.
things have been all good on the quiet front. nothing to spectacular to write home about. 2 bachelor parties 2 weeks in a row. both definitely taking its toll on my body. but definitely a good time.
ive been laying low due to lack of funds. bills have been tight this past month, and i really need to start saving money. with gas bills going to start being sky high soon, and christmas right around the corner, i need to save every penny i can. we're planning on going to florida again at the end of february again, so i also need to start saving for that.
speaking of florida... i will be in florida from oct. 19th until cot. 24th. Spending some time with my folks. I havent seen my folks in probably a good month or so. i should probably stop over and say hello one of these days.
ive been busy at work. i'm still down and employee. they still have not hired anyone for me, and it doesnt look like they are going to anytime soon. go figure! other weird shit is going on at work. i'll know more news next week.
i'm so glad the seasons of television shows have started up again. i am seriously stoked on a ton of shows on tv. so to pass away the time now, i will become a vegetable and chill and watch tv. video games have also been keeping me busy. Madden 09, Tiger Woods 09, NHL 09, and soon i'll be getting Batman Legos and Left 4 Dead.
I've been eating a lot better now a days and drinking less and less. I'm starting to feel good and have been losing some weight. i call that a plus.
Ive also found myself more and more not into music as much as i used to be. i dont know why, but ive found it to be less interesting to me as it used to be. i'm not really into all the new bands, new genres etc.. i guess i am getting old......
long time no type.
things have been all good on the quiet front. nothing to spectacular to write home about. 2 bachelor parties 2 weeks in a row. both definitely taking its toll on my body. but definitely a good time.
ive been laying low due to lack of funds. bills have been tight this past month, and i really need to start saving money. with gas bills going to start being sky high soon, and christmas right around the corner, i need to save every penny i can. we're planning on going to florida again at the end of february again, so i also need to start saving for that.
speaking of florida... i will be in florida from oct. 19th until cot. 24th. Spending some time with my folks. I havent seen my folks in probably a good month or so. i should probably stop over and say hello one of these days.
ive been busy at work. i'm still down and employee. they still have not hired anyone for me, and it doesnt look like they are going to anytime soon. go figure! other weird shit is going on at work. i'll know more news next week.
i'm so glad the seasons of television shows have started up again. i am seriously stoked on a ton of shows on tv. so to pass away the time now, i will become a vegetable and chill and watch tv. video games have also been keeping me busy. Madden 09, Tiger Woods 09, NHL 09, and soon i'll be getting Batman Legos and Left 4 Dead.
I've been eating a lot better now a days and drinking less and less. I'm starting to feel good and have been losing some weight. i call that a plus.
Ive also found myself more and more not into music as much as i used to be. i dont know why, but ive found it to be less interesting to me as it used to be. i'm not really into all the new bands, new genres etc.. i guess i am getting old......
Tuesday, September 9, 2008
i am a little preturbed right now.so i finally decided to dig out my record player from the basement and listen to some records. I jerry rigged my turntable up to my surround sound as best as possible right now. I threw on a few records i bought a month or so ago. One of them being "Wasted Again" - Black Flag. Only to find out that when i put it on and spun it around i noticed it is slightly warped. it still plays fine, but thats not the point. I miss listening to records.
ps. this is for joe.:) eat it.
ps. this is for joe.:) eat it.
- the vindictives - many moods of...
- crass - christ the album
- victory at sea - carousel
- black flag - wasted again
- all - allroy says
Monday, September 8, 2008
here's a update for all of you... since i know you all care.
As of late work has been biting the big one. They added a store to my route. Took an merchandiser from me. Gave me a new merchandiser. She sucked. She quit. I'm down 2 merchandisers and gained a store. Totally bites the big one, and i've been working my ass off for the past 3 weeks. So from now until they hire me a new guy, i'm screwed. Hopefully they will hire someone soon. As for now, I will be working 7 days a week. FUN!
With that being said, I havent really been able to do much besides work. At the begining of the year, I told myself this would be the year i concentrated a lot of playing golf and getting my golf game up to par. I'm no slouch when it comes to golf, but i could use the work on my game. I think this summer i've played a total of 4 rounds. which is totally pathetic. I am really bummed out about that. It's something i LOVE to do more than a lot of things in life.
4 weeks ago my life has been semi destroyed by video games. First Madden 09. And now Tiger Woods 09. I cannot pull myself away from Tiger Woods. The game is fuckin solid! the online play is amazing. Madden on the other hand has been making me frustrated and was told i need to turn the game off, due to words flying out of my mouth, and me throwing the controller across the room.
Joe, Mike and I took a nice bike ride today. We rode down Lake Ave to Rocky River, and headed to a private beach on Wager Rd. We skipped rocks and hung out on the beach. After that we ended up going to the Rocky River Pier and hung out a bit. We also got in trouble by the cops for riding on the pier. After the pier we rode back and ended up stopping for a beer. It was a well deserved beer as it was a nice bike ride. pictures can be found here...
What's awesome is that i have had that bike since 1995. Still rides smooth and still is an awesome bike.
Band stuff.
Well, we played a show at Mahalls for the Cheap Tragedies 7" release show. I was in a really awful/weird mood that night. I ended up throwing my mic on the ground and smashing it. For some reason i was very angry at that show. I felt bad i left and didnt get to see CHEAP TRAGEDIES. btw they used photos of mine i took of them in their layout. It is on NO IDEA RECORDS. buy it.
Other than that we havent practiced. The band has, but i haven't. Maybe this makes me a dick for saying this, but sometimes i really loathe going to practice. I know joe and mike and jeff like to have a good time and play metallica songs, but it does get rather annoying to me because most of the time spent there is them playing it. Listen, I love metallica more than the next guy, but still, sometimes im just not in the mood for it. I like the songs we have so far and i'm really looking forward to writing more. Only thing is, it feels like no one likes this band either. which makes it hard for me to concentrate on doing it. It just seems like every band I am in, no one cares. SO it kind of makes it hard for me to really keep caring. I love being in a band, dont get me wrong.
Other than that things been been on the DL. This weekend is a very busy one. Last Indians game in our package play is Friday night. Saturday night is Chris' bachelor party. And Sunday I am golfing in an outing with some people from work.
what's up with you?
As of late work has been biting the big one. They added a store to my route. Took an merchandiser from me. Gave me a new merchandiser. She sucked. She quit. I'm down 2 merchandisers and gained a store. Totally bites the big one, and i've been working my ass off for the past 3 weeks. So from now until they hire me a new guy, i'm screwed. Hopefully they will hire someone soon. As for now, I will be working 7 days a week. FUN!
With that being said, I havent really been able to do much besides work. At the begining of the year, I told myself this would be the year i concentrated a lot of playing golf and getting my golf game up to par. I'm no slouch when it comes to golf, but i could use the work on my game. I think this summer i've played a total of 4 rounds. which is totally pathetic. I am really bummed out about that. It's something i LOVE to do more than a lot of things in life.
4 weeks ago my life has been semi destroyed by video games. First Madden 09. And now Tiger Woods 09. I cannot pull myself away from Tiger Woods. The game is fuckin solid! the online play is amazing. Madden on the other hand has been making me frustrated and was told i need to turn the game off, due to words flying out of my mouth, and me throwing the controller across the room.
Joe, Mike and I took a nice bike ride today. We rode down Lake Ave to Rocky River, and headed to a private beach on Wager Rd. We skipped rocks and hung out on the beach. After that we ended up going to the Rocky River Pier and hung out a bit. We also got in trouble by the cops for riding on the pier. After the pier we rode back and ended up stopping for a beer. It was a well deserved beer as it was a nice bike ride. pictures can be found here...
What's awesome is that i have had that bike since 1995. Still rides smooth and still is an awesome bike.
Band stuff.
Well, we played a show at Mahalls for the Cheap Tragedies 7" release show. I was in a really awful/weird mood that night. I ended up throwing my mic on the ground and smashing it. For some reason i was very angry at that show. I felt bad i left and didnt get to see CHEAP TRAGEDIES. btw they used photos of mine i took of them in their layout. It is on NO IDEA RECORDS. buy it.
Other than that we havent practiced. The band has, but i haven't. Maybe this makes me a dick for saying this, but sometimes i really loathe going to practice. I know joe and mike and jeff like to have a good time and play metallica songs, but it does get rather annoying to me because most of the time spent there is them playing it. Listen, I love metallica more than the next guy, but still, sometimes im just not in the mood for it. I like the songs we have so far and i'm really looking forward to writing more. Only thing is, it feels like no one likes this band either. which makes it hard for me to concentrate on doing it. It just seems like every band I am in, no one cares. SO it kind of makes it hard for me to really keep caring. I love being in a band, dont get me wrong.
Other than that things been been on the DL. This weekend is a very busy one. Last Indians game in our package play is Friday night. Saturday night is Chris' bachelor party. And Sunday I am golfing in an outing with some people from work.
what's up with you?
Monday, August 11, 2008
this past weekend has been a blur.it's been busy and kept me occupied.Friday night i was home alone watching the Olympic ceremonies. If you did not catch them, it was absolutely brilliant and beautiful. check out some of these pictures.(http://www.boston.com/bigpicture/2008/08/2008_olympics_opening_ceremony.html)
Joe came home and invited me upstairs to drink a few beers. I was down, as Krissy went to bed after she got home from work. What went from having a few beers, turned into a night of epic proportions. Aaron and Emo Steve ended up joining in on the fun, and i do say so myself, my stomach hurt bad from laughing so damn hard. I took some photos of the madness.. I was just having fun using my camera again.
and the rest can be seen here..
http://www.flickr.com/photos/ryedood
Saturday, I chilled out watching some Olypmics and then Krissy and I had to drive to Navarre, Ohio. Her cousins' grandmother passed away, so they had the wake after party things at her cousins house. We got there and shot the shit with her stepdad. Ate some good food and just hung out with her family. It was a nice time.
Sunday, We then had family stuff to do at my parents house. We were celebrating my nephew's birthday. So we headed over there for a cookout. It was a good time, but i ate to much food and felt like crap for the entire rest of the night.
We, Hockey Fight!, are playing a bunch fo shows coming up. I'm pretty stoked on it. I am also stoked to go get my Black Flag tattoo. Hopefully that will happen sunday before the show.
Wednesday, August 6, 2008
photography
i took my camera to the show on Monday night. I havent snapped a picture with it in over a year and a half i think. I think i took 145 pics and about 40 of them were semi decent. explore for yourself...
http://www.flickr.com/photos/ryedood
MURDER PRACTICE (CA)
SEA SKULLS(OH)
MY RULEZ (OH)
http://www.flickr.com/photos/ryedood
MURDER PRACTICE (CA)
SEA SKULLS(OH)
MY RULEZ (OH)
Sunday, August 3, 2008
i realized something today...
i realized that i really miss putting photographs into photo albums.
i used to jam pack my photo albums with tons of pictures and i havent done that in over 3 years. I think i'm going to start to do that again. I always love looking at old photos in my albums. And i'm really angry that when my desktop took a shit last year, i lost a ton of photographs that were very dear to my heart. and i miss that a lot.
I also miss taking pictures of bands.
i wish i could get out more to take photographs. i think i was somewhat good at taking them.
from here on out, i am going to start printing my photos again and filling up photo albums.
i realized that i really miss putting photographs into photo albums.
i used to jam pack my photo albums with tons of pictures and i havent done that in over 3 years. I think i'm going to start to do that again. I always love looking at old photos in my albums. And i'm really angry that when my desktop took a shit last year, i lost a ton of photographs that were very dear to my heart. and i miss that a lot.
I also miss taking pictures of bands.
i wish i could get out more to take photographs. i think i was somewhat good at taking them.
from here on out, i am going to start printing my photos again and filling up photo albums.
day 6 of vacation
day 6 started off very rough!
waking up with a horrendous hangover and little sleep. I had to be up at 7am. My brother was meeting me at 8am to head on out to the WGC Bridgestone PGA CHampionship in Akron. I took a shower and took 4 advil's and drank 2 cups of coffee. I was still in a world of shit when my brother came.
We headed out and arrived at the golf course around 9:30am. Got in and walked around a few holes just checking out the course. This is the 3rd year i've been there, so i was familiar with the course. We followed around a few guys for a few holes. It's somewhat refreshing to see pro's miss hit shots and make some mistakes.
Around 11am we headed over to the tent where we got free food and free drinks. Which is what i was needing. I ate like a horse and drank 3 20oz bottles of water in less than 30 minutes to rehydrate myself. After we ate we followed around a few more guys, the leaders, and then headed out around 3:30.
I walked so much that day. But all that walking helped me walk off my hangover. So by noon, i was in good shape. just really tired from walking that whole course about 5 times over in the hot sun.
I came home from the golf tournament and took a nap. Joe, Krissy and Courtney and I were going to go to the tatoo parlor to get some ink done. too bad we didnt think of making an appointment. so we ended up not getting anything done.
So instead of tattoo's we went and got some food at angelo's. Had a nice meal there, although the service was not so good there either. which is odd because it usually is really good there, being a small small place. but they were pretty busy.
After dinner we all ended up going to lakewood park and sat by the water and watched the waves crash into the walls. it was very relaxing and calm. We came back and Joe and I got some beers, while we waited for some other people to get back from the weakerthans show. Krissy went to bed so we hung out up on Joe's porch til about 2:30am. I came back home around then and ended up watching Ferris Buellers Day Off til 5am.
I didnt sleep al that well last night. So i ended up sleeping on the couch because i didn't want my tossing and turning to wake up krissy. she seemed like she was in a deep sleep. so i let her be.
waking up with a horrendous hangover and little sleep. I had to be up at 7am. My brother was meeting me at 8am to head on out to the WGC Bridgestone PGA CHampionship in Akron. I took a shower and took 4 advil's and drank 2 cups of coffee. I was still in a world of shit when my brother came.
We headed out and arrived at the golf course around 9:30am. Got in and walked around a few holes just checking out the course. This is the 3rd year i've been there, so i was familiar with the course. We followed around a few guys for a few holes. It's somewhat refreshing to see pro's miss hit shots and make some mistakes.
Around 11am we headed over to the tent where we got free food and free drinks. Which is what i was needing. I ate like a horse and drank 3 20oz bottles of water in less than 30 minutes to rehydrate myself. After we ate we followed around a few more guys, the leaders, and then headed out around 3:30.
I walked so much that day. But all that walking helped me walk off my hangover. So by noon, i was in good shape. just really tired from walking that whole course about 5 times over in the hot sun.
I came home from the golf tournament and took a nap. Joe, Krissy and Courtney and I were going to go to the tatoo parlor to get some ink done. too bad we didnt think of making an appointment. so we ended up not getting anything done.
So instead of tattoo's we went and got some food at angelo's. Had a nice meal there, although the service was not so good there either. which is odd because it usually is really good there, being a small small place. but they were pretty busy.
After dinner we all ended up going to lakewood park and sat by the water and watched the waves crash into the walls. it was very relaxing and calm. We came back and Joe and I got some beers, while we waited for some other people to get back from the weakerthans show. Krissy went to bed so we hung out up on Joe's porch til about 2:30am. I came back home around then and ended up watching Ferris Buellers Day Off til 5am.
I didnt sleep al that well last night. So i ended up sleeping on the couch because i didn't want my tossing and turning to wake up krissy. she seemed like she was in a deep sleep. so i let her be.
day 5 of vacation
day 5 of vacation started off good. woke up refreshed and was ready to have a good day. And a good day it was. Brianna stayed home from school, because i had to meet up with krissy's mom in the afternoon. so no use taking her to day care for like 4 hours.
joe decided he would take a ride with me to drop off brianna for the weekend. this way we could go and get some errands we needed to take care of done. we drove down to fairlawn and met up with krissy's mom. but before hand we ended up going into a pet store by where we meet up. joe fell in love with a little dog there. i could tell he was bummed out about it and wanted to buy that dog. i dont blame him, that dog was awesomely cute.
we dropped off brianna and then headed to get some food. we ended up going to the winking lizard by summit mall. we got sat in the most bullshit seat in the place. the very back corner of the bar area, right by the bathroom/kitchen doors. Our service was fucking bullshit. the server took forver to take our drink order, never came back to the table, and never offered us refills etc.. shit time. come to think of it, everytime i go to a winking lizard i have horrible service unless i sit directly at the bar.
after food we ended up going to our practice spot to pay the rent for the space. by that time jason had called and was done with his meeting and was ready to meet up. gave him directions to my house, and just chilled at my house for a bit before we ended up heading over to chris' house for a bar-b-q.
i ended up riding my bike over, due to me wanting to get drunk and not drive my car. and that is exactly what i did. i got epic-ly drunk. i dont think ive gotten that drunk and had a good time in a long as time. i blame it on wizard staff.** (wizard staffing is basically taking a beer can and taking the empty one to the bottom with duct tape, and repeating as you start a new beer)
** see photographic evidence at bottom of post.
i had an amazing time at chris' house. so much fun that i couldnt even ride my bike. although i did end up riding home after a rather epic conversation upon my leave. (i wont go into what i said) i didn't remember my ride home at all. i do however remember feeling like absolute garbage when i did get home. i thought i was going to puke, so i went to the bathroom and ended up laying on the floor and had to be woken up by krissy in the middle of the night.
Jason and I and our Wizard Staff's
more photographic evidence can be found here...
http://flickr.com/photos/ryedood/sets/72157606523678346/
and here...
http://www.flickr.com/photos/suburban_iconoclast/sets/72157606506858370/
joe decided he would take a ride with me to drop off brianna for the weekend. this way we could go and get some errands we needed to take care of done. we drove down to fairlawn and met up with krissy's mom. but before hand we ended up going into a pet store by where we meet up. joe fell in love with a little dog there. i could tell he was bummed out about it and wanted to buy that dog. i dont blame him, that dog was awesomely cute.
we dropped off brianna and then headed to get some food. we ended up going to the winking lizard by summit mall. we got sat in the most bullshit seat in the place. the very back corner of the bar area, right by the bathroom/kitchen doors. Our service was fucking bullshit. the server took forver to take our drink order, never came back to the table, and never offered us refills etc.. shit time. come to think of it, everytime i go to a winking lizard i have horrible service unless i sit directly at the bar.
after food we ended up going to our practice spot to pay the rent for the space. by that time jason had called and was done with his meeting and was ready to meet up. gave him directions to my house, and just chilled at my house for a bit before we ended up heading over to chris' house for a bar-b-q.
i ended up riding my bike over, due to me wanting to get drunk and not drive my car. and that is exactly what i did. i got epic-ly drunk. i dont think ive gotten that drunk and had a good time in a long as time. i blame it on wizard staff.** (wizard staffing is basically taking a beer can and taking the empty one to the bottom with duct tape, and repeating as you start a new beer)
** see photographic evidence at bottom of post.
i had an amazing time at chris' house. so much fun that i couldnt even ride my bike. although i did end up riding home after a rather epic conversation upon my leave. (i wont go into what i said) i didn't remember my ride home at all. i do however remember feeling like absolute garbage when i did get home. i thought i was going to puke, so i went to the bathroom and ended up laying on the floor and had to be woken up by krissy in the middle of the night.
Jason and I and our Wizard Staff's
more photographic evidence can be found here...
http://flickr.com/photos/ryedood/sets/72157606523678346/
and here...
http://www.flickr.com/photos/suburban_iconoclast/sets/72157606506858370/
Friday, August 1, 2008
day 4 of vacation
yesterday was a good day.i didnt really do much. which is what i had planned on doing. i layed in bed until about 11am. which is by far the longest ive slept in a long time. usually i'm up at the butt crack of dawn everyday, no matter what. so lounging around was good.
we took brianna up to get enrolled in school. school starts august 27th.after we took her to get enrolled, we ended up going over to Lowe's and Target and then lunch at Chik-Fil-A. I am in love with their new salads there.
I've started to eat a bit more healthier as of late. its beeen good. and i'm starting to feel better. ive also been riding my bike again. which has been good. I really want to start losing this guy that I have gained. and so far its been slimming down. I'm going to start limiting myself from fast food.
After we returned from running errands we cam back and cleaned out the pool. it was pretty gross. there were bugs growing/swimming in there. So we decided to get a tarp to put over it for the time being.
After all that was done, Chris, Joe, Burrows and Zbear came over and we started watching Band of Brothers.
we took brianna up to get enrolled in school. school starts august 27th.after we took her to get enrolled, we ended up going over to Lowe's and Target and then lunch at Chik-Fil-A. I am in love with their new salads there.
I've started to eat a bit more healthier as of late. its beeen good. and i'm starting to feel better. ive also been riding my bike again. which has been good. I really want to start losing this guy that I have gained. and so far its been slimming down. I'm going to start limiting myself from fast food.
After we returned from running errands we cam back and cleaned out the pool. it was pretty gross. there were bugs growing/swimming in there. So we decided to get a tarp to put over it for the time being.
After all that was done, Chris, Joe, Burrows and Zbear came over and we started watching Band of Brothers.
Wednesday, July 30, 2008
day 3 of vacation : part II
i was going to give an update of the rest of the night.but i am kind of drunk at this point.this is what i wanted my vacation to be like.good times tonight. practice was really fun.hangouts after practice were even more fun.more updates tomorrow .
day 3 of vacation : part I
this morning started off with me waking up in a pool of sweat. it was so damn hot in my house, it made it hard for me to sleep. i ended up waking up to my cat biting my nose. i hate when he does this. so i shoved him away and he came back yest again to bite my nose. a gentle shove away again and back to sleep. 5 minutes later there he is grooming my head. Do you know how disgusting that feels?
I woke up, layed on the couch and watched the today show for a bit. I finally got up and decided to start cleaning my house. I started with the living room. i started cleaning off my couches, then wiping down and dusting everything. After that I decided that i didnt like where the television was. people cane see it through my front door. I did not like that fact at all. So I moved and rearranged my living room. While in the process I decided that I needed to get some of those zip ties, because looking at the back of my televison was/is a disaster. there were wires EVERYWHERE!
At this point I decided that I needed to get a few other things, so I would head up to Lowes. Instead of driving, I decided to ride my bike. So i gathered my bag and my ipod and hit the road. As I was riding down Bunts I hear someone honk at me. At first I thought it was some obnoxious idiot honking at me because I was riding on the road. You know how idiotic some people can get. Anyways, it turned out to be Erin T.
I got to Lowes picked up some things, and then headed over to target to grab a few other things I needed. Grabbed my goods and headed over to Robeks to get a smootie. Drank my smoothie and headed on home. On the way home, it started to rain. I wasn't complaining though because it actually felt really good.
Came home and finished cleaning the living room, so I started on the kitchen. Only thing left in the kitchen is to do the dishes.
I originally wanted to start to paint the hallway today, but I think that is going to have to wait until tomorrow. I am going to wash up and ride my bike to get something to eat.
After that, I think I will take a nap, play some video games, and head out to band practice....
I woke up, layed on the couch and watched the today show for a bit. I finally got up and decided to start cleaning my house. I started with the living room. i started cleaning off my couches, then wiping down and dusting everything. After that I decided that i didnt like where the television was. people cane see it through my front door. I did not like that fact at all. So I moved and rearranged my living room. While in the process I decided that I needed to get some of those zip ties, because looking at the back of my televison was/is a disaster. there were wires EVERYWHERE!
At this point I decided that I needed to get a few other things, so I would head up to Lowes. Instead of driving, I decided to ride my bike. So i gathered my bag and my ipod and hit the road. As I was riding down Bunts I hear someone honk at me. At first I thought it was some obnoxious idiot honking at me because I was riding on the road. You know how idiotic some people can get. Anyways, it turned out to be Erin T.
I got to Lowes picked up some things, and then headed over to target to grab a few other things I needed. Grabbed my goods and headed over to Robeks to get a smootie. Drank my smoothie and headed on home. On the way home, it started to rain. I wasn't complaining though because it actually felt really good.
Came home and finished cleaning the living room, so I started on the kitchen. Only thing left in the kitchen is to do the dishes.
I originally wanted to start to paint the hallway today, but I think that is going to have to wait until tomorrow. I am going to wash up and ride my bike to get something to eat.
After that, I think I will take a nap, play some video games, and head out to band practice....
Tuesday, July 29, 2008
day 2 of vacation
Again, last night, I fell asleep watching GENERATION KILL. I missed the ending to it yet again. Major fucking bummer. But I think this weekend we're going to have a get together and watch all 3 of them. Grabski's been wanting to catch up on this since he doesnt get HBO.
I got up this morning pretty early again. It's a force of habit with me. being up for work for the past 10 years at 5am will take it's toll on you. I think I have formed some internal time clock inside me. It's like clockwork when it comes to me waking up.
I headed out around 10:30am to meet up with my Mom, Dad, and brother. Got to the course after a 45 minute drive there. locked my bag intot he cart and we were off. The course was in phenominal shape. The greens were fast as all hell. I think my Dad said they were somewhere in between a 10 and 12 on the stimpmeter. * (The Stimpmeter is a device used to measure the speed of a golf course putting green by applying a known force to a golf ball and measuring the distance traveled in feet.) So with that being said,they were basically playing up to PGA Tour quality.
The rough was thick and the fairways were flush. The course look amazing. And it took a toll on me throughout the day. The first few holes were pretty rough on me. I couldnt place the ball where i wanted to. Putting was hard to gauge. and it made me a bit uneasy. Normally I drive the ball off the tee very well. The drive has been a strong spot for me in the past. Not so much today though. I dont know what it was. I kept trying to force myself to hit the ball and wouldnt finish my follow through. Which blew my mind, considering yesterday at the driving range i was hitting perfect drives. But, that is the game of golf. It is such a mental mind fuck.
I ended up playing a lot better on the back nine. I started hitting my irons well and finally got used to the greens. My brother had pretty much the same problems as me. We're pretty even when it comes to playing. We're not really all that competative, which is nice considering me and my dad usually are... well at least i am..lol.
By the time we finished up 18 holes, I was exausted. The course at me up alive. As did the sun. It was really hot and i started to get burnt out there. I headed on home to pick up Brianna.
Picked up Brianna from school and came home and made some dinner. I didn;t eat anything because i really havent had much of an apetite as of late. She sat and watched some television, as did I. Krissy came home and was kind of in a crummy mood from her meetings today. Actually chalk that up to both of them being in a crummy mood. I tried joking around with both of them, as i normally do, but they didnt find any humour in anything i did. ohh well.
I'm sitting here watching the Tribe game and wishing i was at the game. It's dollar hot dog night tonight, and not to mention i have been missing going to the ball park to catch a game. I mean, yes, the indians are in last place, but i'd still love to go down and support the tribe.
Tomorrow I might venture out to get Soul Caliber 4. but i doubt it. i have this feeling that i will play it for a hour or so and then get bored with it.
tomorrow i have no plans. i think i'll just lounge around the house and maybe do some cleaning. I'll probably end up writing some more lyrics for some new songs we've been writing.
toodles.
I got up this morning pretty early again. It's a force of habit with me. being up for work for the past 10 years at 5am will take it's toll on you. I think I have formed some internal time clock inside me. It's like clockwork when it comes to me waking up.
I headed out around 10:30am to meet up with my Mom, Dad, and brother. Got to the course after a 45 minute drive there. locked my bag intot he cart and we were off. The course was in phenominal shape. The greens were fast as all hell. I think my Dad said they were somewhere in between a 10 and 12 on the stimpmeter. * (The Stimpmeter is a device used to measure the speed of a golf course putting green by applying a known force to a golf ball and measuring the distance traveled in feet.) So with that being said,they were basically playing up to PGA Tour quality.
The rough was thick and the fairways were flush. The course look amazing. And it took a toll on me throughout the day. The first few holes were pretty rough on me. I couldnt place the ball where i wanted to. Putting was hard to gauge. and it made me a bit uneasy. Normally I drive the ball off the tee very well. The drive has been a strong spot for me in the past. Not so much today though. I dont know what it was. I kept trying to force myself to hit the ball and wouldnt finish my follow through. Which blew my mind, considering yesterday at the driving range i was hitting perfect drives. But, that is the game of golf. It is such a mental mind fuck.
I ended up playing a lot better on the back nine. I started hitting my irons well and finally got used to the greens. My brother had pretty much the same problems as me. We're pretty even when it comes to playing. We're not really all that competative, which is nice considering me and my dad usually are... well at least i am..lol.
By the time we finished up 18 holes, I was exausted. The course at me up alive. As did the sun. It was really hot and i started to get burnt out there. I headed on home to pick up Brianna.
Picked up Brianna from school and came home and made some dinner. I didn;t eat anything because i really havent had much of an apetite as of late. She sat and watched some television, as did I. Krissy came home and was kind of in a crummy mood from her meetings today. Actually chalk that up to both of them being in a crummy mood. I tried joking around with both of them, as i normally do, but they didnt find any humour in anything i did. ohh well.
I'm sitting here watching the Tribe game and wishing i was at the game. It's dollar hot dog night tonight, and not to mention i have been missing going to the ball park to catch a game. I mean, yes, the indians are in last place, but i'd still love to go down and support the tribe.
Tomorrow I might venture out to get Soul Caliber 4. but i doubt it. i have this feeling that i will play it for a hour or so and then get bored with it.
tomorrow i have no plans. i think i'll just lounge around the house and maybe do some cleaning. I'll probably end up writing some more lyrics for some new songs we've been writing.
toodles.
Monday, July 28, 2008
day 1 of vacation
today has been a good day. although i slept on the couch last night because i was butt ass tired from spending almost 8 hours at the zoo on sunday. i fell asleep watching Generation Kill, and never woke up. which is odd because i usually end up waking up throughout the middle of the night. I woke up at 6am. Felt refreshed and was ready to have a good day.
I stopped into work to drop off the computer to the guy who is running my route, and proceeded home. Got Brianna ready for school. Krissy and I took her, and then proceeded to drop off Krissy at work. Her car is "broke." Took her to work and ran some errands. Stopped by the bank= to deposit a check. Signed up for a savings account. Got a new debit card, because apparently i can earn points not. So that's pretty rad.
Left the bank and headed out to run some errands. One ended up being at Steelyard Commons. So after my errands i decided to go to the practice spot to clean up. It's the anal side of me. I think i have problems with having things being neat and organized. Last night at practice i felt disgusted to be in that room. things were all clusted about and things all over the floor. Not to mention i wanted to move the PA because last night i had a real problem hearing myself. It sucks being stuck in the middle of guitar amps. Joe is on my right and jeff is directly across from him on my left. It just got to be so loud last night that i couldnt even concentrate on what was going on. It made me zone out for a bit and not even realize what was going on. I also think i need to start wearing ear plugs.. So i cleaned up a bit at the spot, moved some stuff around to make it more acceptable for me to be in. lol. I want more things/posters on the walls. the one side is starting to fill up nicely.
After returning back from errands and the practice spot, Chris and I decided to go the driving range to wack around the little white ball. It was nice and refreshing. Although it was pretty damn hot out. But it is always a good outles for me and Chris to hangout and shoot the shit for a it.. Which is nice and something i miss. So, I'm glad we get out to do it every once in a while.
On my return home from the driving range, i had to take Krissy's car up to get fixed. The guy at the station was super nice. I dont have a mechanic on this side of town, so it's always skeptical going to a new one. You never know if your going to get a raw deal. But this guy was solid and did the job in just under 2 hours.
I picked Brianna up from school and we headed out to pick up Krissy from work. I hate driving to Parma. There is no easy way to get there, and when you do get there you immediately want to leave. Worst part about it, is the mall. It is the biggest WT mall of them all.
Weleft her work and ended up going to El Jalepenos for dinner. Niether of us wanted to cook, so it was an easy outlet. I love that place. Although i am now in a food coma. Here i sit at 8:30pm on Monday evening, finishing out my night by watching SHARK WEEK on the Discovery Channel.
Tomorrow I have a long day ahead of me. I am golfing at Quail Hollow with Mom, Dad, and my brother. Should be a good day....
I stopped into work to drop off the computer to the guy who is running my route, and proceeded home. Got Brianna ready for school. Krissy and I took her, and then proceeded to drop off Krissy at work. Her car is "broke." Took her to work and ran some errands. Stopped by the bank= to deposit a check. Signed up for a savings account. Got a new debit card, because apparently i can earn points not. So that's pretty rad.
Left the bank and headed out to run some errands. One ended up being at Steelyard Commons. So after my errands i decided to go to the practice spot to clean up. It's the anal side of me. I think i have problems with having things being neat and organized. Last night at practice i felt disgusted to be in that room. things were all clusted about and things all over the floor. Not to mention i wanted to move the PA because last night i had a real problem hearing myself. It sucks being stuck in the middle of guitar amps. Joe is on my right and jeff is directly across from him on my left. It just got to be so loud last night that i couldnt even concentrate on what was going on. It made me zone out for a bit and not even realize what was going on. I also think i need to start wearing ear plugs.. So i cleaned up a bit at the spot, moved some stuff around to make it more acceptable for me to be in. lol. I want more things/posters on the walls. the one side is starting to fill up nicely.
After returning back from errands and the practice spot, Chris and I decided to go the driving range to wack around the little white ball. It was nice and refreshing. Although it was pretty damn hot out. But it is always a good outles for me and Chris to hangout and shoot the shit for a it.. Which is nice and something i miss. So, I'm glad we get out to do it every once in a while.
On my return home from the driving range, i had to take Krissy's car up to get fixed. The guy at the station was super nice. I dont have a mechanic on this side of town, so it's always skeptical going to a new one. You never know if your going to get a raw deal. But this guy was solid and did the job in just under 2 hours.
I picked Brianna up from school and we headed out to pick up Krissy from work. I hate driving to Parma. There is no easy way to get there, and when you do get there you immediately want to leave. Worst part about it, is the mall. It is the biggest WT mall of them all.
Weleft her work and ended up going to El Jalepenos for dinner. Niether of us wanted to cook, so it was an easy outlet. I love that place. Although i am now in a food coma. Here i sit at 8:30pm on Monday evening, finishing out my night by watching SHARK WEEK on the Discovery Channel.
Tomorrow I have a long day ahead of me. I am golfing at Quail Hollow with Mom, Dad, and my brother. Should be a good day....
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